it isn't wasted.

I do not believe I got a B for Science.
Because I didn't. Not until I get my paper back and prove I deserve an A.
Freedom is such a scam. So they say exams are over. I still:
- have projects due next week,
- have trials in two months,
- have PMR in five,
- can't go for JYM activities,
- only played the guitars because my mom went out,
- am in "popular demand" (Thanks so much, Jit Sun. . . not.)
- have to perform for Teacher's Day,
- can't skip classes,
- and don't have my phone.
But at least I:
- can still go for practice on Monday night,
- got to go for CF,
- am almost done with my History project and halfway through my Geography one,
- don't have to worry about their "issues" anymore
- have a employed spy who stalks my stalkers for me and doesn't even take any charge (although I should pay him, considering the resources he spends),
- and get to see Darren tomorrow! Yays. =)

Somehow, this morning, memories started flooding my head. Maybe because I was dreaming about the '08 team for two nights straight (don't ask me why it's in my subconciousness). Or maybe because they were one of the things I wrote about on the back of my KH paper, which I passed up. (o.O) I don't know.
But do you guys still remember the launching? I remember volunteering to head it during our '08 team party, after the 2nd training camp. (And that's why you guys started asking me to take up stuff. =.=") I was like damn stressed out for that whole month, and Crystal and Roeshan were the only two people who made an effort to help out with the presentation. The week before the video launching, Alan and Aaron West took me to the park in front of SK Kampung Tunku with ayam panggang and roti John and more Ramadhan food to discuss the Stomp because they thought it was that weekend and they were freaking out. :) And then we found out the SS1 park had no tap. XD That weekend, I was so dissapointed. Especially on Sunday morning. I could have cried, if Darren, Beatrice, Crystal and Jac weren't there. I nearly did that afternoon, I so wanted to with Beatrice.
The next week, we did the Stomp, hakka and Shalala. And it was awesome, obviously. X) Angeline wasn't there with us. She didn't even see it. I wish she had.
I remember the feedback we had during the Core Team meeting. =) One of the '06 girls said there was evem an auntie humming the Shalala in the bathroom. XD

Randomness. :)
Look, my hair is not that short, okay. It'll grow. And then I'll just have to...cut it again! XP

to find a recording studio. (editted)

Viewing Without You, by the SIC Youth Rally Outreach Team of 2008.

The best part of reminiscence is when all those old people suddenly spring back up in your life again.
Like just the other day, I messaged Sharvind to wish him happy belated 15th because he so thoughtfully called me for my birthday last year when I’d forgotten all about him. (Thanks for reminding me, Bananie-O. XP) I miss him and Jian Min as much as I miss the Munks, wei. (Remember the retarded slang we came up with in the middle of ’07? Lols.) And then on Sunday…I was almost not late for class, after spending time catching up with Roeshan, Crystal, Augustine, Vanessa, Roger, Angeline and Jordan. Nicholson too, I think. I just miss them too much sometimes. Training camp stories. =) And Augustine and I skipped the gathering. Like, one of our only times ever. Actually, my first time skipping since I started going for them. Then Darren came back. =D I miss him so much, too! Even though it was only, what, two weeks. I even miss Vanessa. After staying up the whole of that Saturday night to talk, I still have so much to tell her. Sitting next to Joshua in mass is…annoying.
By the way…to both parties referred to above, (I mean party as in groups of people, not party as in the actual parties, okay), my mother grounded me.
I shall not spew vulgarities like a foul-cratered volcano. I bet you’re all doing that for me.
It’s a long story. One which I will so have to tell Vanessa if we have time to sit down at the mamak. But then, my mom put some kind of ban on me ever going for JYM activities ever again. I mean, she’s always had mood swings, but now…I don’t even want to be within ten-metres from her unless there’s a solid wall separating us. Really long story.
Oh wells. What can I do about it.

I love the time of the year when people react to my latest hair cut.
Basically, it’s always: “You cut your hair!”
JeAnne: Sammie, why did you cut your hair?!
Chrishen: Yalah Samantha, why did you cut your hair, huh? (=.=”)
Nick Sta Maria: Did you do something to your hair?
Roger: *The mess-up re-do. (As usual.)
Eelaine: I don’t see Samantha any more! But you look prettier somehow. (This Eelaine is so random lah. She made a bookmark for me for no reason at all. XD Thanks.)
Bassy and Meredith: You look so much better, keep it that way! It’s good.
Daniel(la): No...Gloria!
Wai Phun: Your hair is so…short. (Wow, it could only take a genius like you to figure that out.)
But the absolute best reaction of all has got to be this one smart guy.
Aaron LXT: Samantha, how could you?! You terrible person! You just had to get your hair cut like that. I can’t stand it. Stop impersonating my mother!
ROFL. XD

The Science papers were awesome! As in awesome = basically easy. I finished Paper 2 in half an hour, slept and wrote love songs about Li Hui and Eelaine's love lives on my calculator's cover because I didn't want to write on my hand. XP Today's sotong was too salty. And I saw . . . . . . =) I still remember the first time we met...*reminiscence again.

oh tranquil simplicity, where art thou?

If you sat me in front of the most terrifying thriller movie right now, I would probably fall asleep within the opening credits. But I can’t afford to do that. I don’t even have the time to study. I so need to finish my Geography and History course work and actually start packing my bags. For when? Tomorrow afternoon. Wow, how well I coordinate myself. *voice drips with acidic sarcasm. And what have I been doing for the past few hours? Reading a free online download of the first book of Meg’s Cabot Mediator series.
And continuously running up and down the stairs to answer calls from Chrishen, who is freaking out and making me freak out too. After all the "chilling" I tried to put myself through last Thursday, and thinking this would all be so simple compared to that, this is what I get for it?! Apparently so. Some peaceful weekend to escape from my projects and revise in serenity.
But there are still major things to thank God for:

1. That my computer has been resurrected and is now free of the cyber world’s A(H1N1).
2. That the Canadian pizza people came on time with the toaster, buntings, and most importantly, 40 pizzas. (By the way, did you know that a pizza toaster is like, three times the size of a regular microwave?! Imagine how huge their ovens are!)
3. That Chrishen and I didn't skip class.
4. That Beatrice, Beatrice and I managed to finish selling thirty-nine pizzas with profit.
5. That we cleaned up the cafeteria.
6. That Michael kindly gave me about 20 packets of those sinfully delicious chocolate brownies, F.O.C. Yum… =)
7. That, on a stiflingly warm Sunday afternoon, three girls managed to find shade beneath a tree beside the community centre. And there they sat, enjoying the extra seafood pizza, brownies and chilled pink guava juice as they plotted the torture of their juniors for the following weekend. (Junior is definitely not the right word. I mean, more than half of them are like, older than me. Whoa. I’m growing old too fast!) X)
8. That my dad fixed the D-string on the classical guitar so I can now play with that guitar when my fingers hurt from the Kapok.
9. That I'm finally getting my own guitar. X) About time. Although I would be better of with a new phone.
10. That tomorrow is almost here and I to go for camp the weekend before exams! Yays.
11. That I managed to at least open my revision books. Even if I didn't really read them.
12. That I finally got my sore throat to the perfect intensity to get half my sexay singing voice back. XP And that I have limbs to dance with when I lose that voice.
13. That I found the props box and will never let it out of sight again until I empty it.
14. That I'm sitting with a bunch of such awesome, love-struck girls who know how to take my mind off other things. =P
15. That life is not as complicated as people make it out to be. And that I have friends to tell me so when I forget. =)

I've been tagged.

1) The person who tagged you is:
Beatrice Grace Chan.

2) Your relationship with him/her is:
Good friend, fellow ’08 team member and asst. chairperson of JYM.

3) Your first impression of him/her is:
Sociable, popular and knows how to dance.

4) The most memorable moments with him/her:
May 2008 – Dec 2008. But mostly the ’08 Rally. X)

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
Err…I don’t know…oh wait, the affirmation circle: “You are the most mature girl on the team, even though you’re the youngest.” =)

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
The “if” is not possible.

7) If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve at:
I repeat, not possible.

8) If he/she becomes yr enemy, what would you do:
Keep talking to her like nothing ever happened.

9) If he/she becomes yr enemy, the reason will be:
Um…not attend a registration? Haha, lawl! =P

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Help her if she feels too burdened with anything…if that is possible.

11) Your overall impression on him/her:
Big shiny sun with a big sunshiny smile, passionate when it comes to dancing and teaching dance and very, very committed.

12) The characteristic you love most about yourself:
Committed, determined and talented (in some ways).

13) The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
Takes up way too much responsibilities sometimes and occasionally corroded time management skills.

14) The most ideal person you want too be is:
Me?

15) For people that care and like you, say something to them:
For friends and family (every kind), tell me if I’m taking you for granted. For people who “like and care” for me (e.g. stalkers and guys who are trying way too hard), get out of my life. Or at least my face.

16) Pass this quiz to 10 ppl who you want to know how they feel about you.
1- Anne Banane!
2- April Tan
3- Rachel Cheng
4- Daniel Anthony
5- Chow Jo Ann
6- Wesley Murang Jon
7- Krisha Munkie!
8- Dinesh Ravi
9- Stephanie Aeria
10- Aaron LXT

17) Who is 6 (Wesley) having a relationship with:
No one… (Know what I’m thinking?)

18) Is 9 (Stephanie) a male or female:
Female.

19) If 7 (Krisha) and 10 (Aaron) were together, would it be a good thing:
That would be half-retard, half-genius. Think it would work? (If they knew each other.)

20) What is 2 (April) studying at the moment:
Everything I’m studying, seeing as how she sits behind me in class.

21) When was the last time you had a chat with 3 (Rachel):
Like…yesterday.

22) What kind of music does 8 (Dinesh) like:
Whatever they play on radio? I don’t know.

23) Does 1 (Anne) have any siblings:
Yes, Rachel Vincent, also known as “Retard” or “Oi!” by Bananie-O.

24) Will you woo 3 (Rachel):
No, she’s taken!

25) How about 7 (Krisha):
Yes, Munkies are HAWT! Lol, we're both girls and we both like guys, not each other.

26) Is 4 (Daniel) single:
Yeah, as far as I know.

27) What's the surname of 5 (Jo Ann):
Chow, like it is so stated up there.

28) What's the hobby of 5 (Jo Ann):
Being random? No, I don’t know.

29) Do 5 (Jo Ann) and 9 (Stephanie) get along well:
Of course they do, they’re team mates! =)

30) Where is 2 (April) studying at:
SMK Taman SEA! With me. In my class.

31) Say something casual about your eyes:
They’re so dark they’re black.

32) Have you tried developing feelings for 5 (Jo Ann):
No. Firstly, she’s taken. Secondly…she’s a girl, like me.

33) Where does 9 (Stephanie) live?:
Somewhere over the rainbow...

34) What colours does 4 (Daniel) like:
Ooh…I know this one! PINK!!! X)

35) Are 5 (Jo Ann) and 1 (Anne) good friends:
They could be if they knew each other.

36) Does 7 (Krisha) like 2 (April):
They don’t know each other and they’re definitely not gender-confused.

37) How did u get to know 2 (April):
SMK Taman SEA Tae Kwon Do!

38) Does 1 (Anne) have any pets:
She screams at the thought of such an idea.

39) Is 7 (Krisha) the sexiest person in the world:
Of course, Munkies are sexay! XP Lol.



Tagged by Yun Lynn
Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog or a note on Facebook with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment (”you’re it”) and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you.
1. I plan on studying mass communication and theology in college.
2. My pet peeves are grammar mistakes.
3. I have a loud voice, even if I don't have such a loud personality. This is what happens when Rachel makes you try to sing the bridge of Receive the Power so the whole Lebuhraya Damansara-Perdana can hear you.
4. Sometimes I'm just way, way too hyped. Like at practice yesterday. I just know I drove Angeline nuts. XD
5. I can survive on dark chocolate and chocolate-filled foods for a full day. Or maybe even three. =]
6. I wouldn't forward chain emails unless they were really, really good.
7. While doing this, I'm reading Wayne's rendition of this tag. I like his blog. =)
8. While doing this, I'm also reading Felix's rendition of this tag. Oh-kay...I just realized he tagged me too. Fine, I got tagged by both him and Yun Lynn.
9. I love the rain. There's something so compelling about it that makes me just want to sit, stare and think.
10. I'm in the mood to post stuff on everyone's CBoxes. Usually I never do.
11. I know there's a lot of stuff I have to say about myself, but I can't remember any of them.
12. I greet nearly every teacher I meet, even if they aren't teachers. And I've realized some of them are just stuck up prats.
13. I've grown 1.5cm and gained no weight since last year. (Why am I being so random?)
14. I feel like adding more words to the smee.the.Smurfs vocabulary.
15. These kind of tags are starting to annoy me.
16. I'm DONE!!!

In the beginning...

Aiyaiyaiks...

Lol, I haven't said that in awhile. XP

It's 2009, wei. What happened to 2008? The last seven months? Whoosh. Gone in the blink of an eye.

It's the second day of the year. And my January schedule is already full. =.=" Goodbye relaxing Tuesdays, Fridays and Sundays. Talk about trying to study this year.

Damn, I really miss you guys lah...I nearly cried over the phone yesterday...that one hour...stupid fella trying to make me sing the theme song...it's just so saddening that people are leaving so soon...one year isn't that long, you know, as we have witnessed by the passing of 2008, the '08 team and the best Rally ever.

And looking at all the prospects for this year...I don't even want to think about it.

I mean...we've already come down to our don't-make-it-the-last meeting. Don't you guys remember the first time we ever met? Sunday, May 18. 12.45 pm. Room 2-1. First person I saw: Jacqueline. First thing she said to me: "Hey, you're Uncle Erwin's daughter right???" First thing I thought as I walked into the room: What the crap, what are the twins and Roger doing here?!

Good times. =") Look at us now. All so different. (Especially Augustine. Thanks to Jordan's constant repeating of the first bus ride story, I can't get it out of my head.) Moving on...it doesn't mean saying goodbye...so don't ever let it come down to that.

2008...change...a change that brought 19 people together for the year of their lives...binding them with a bond stronger than any earthly bond: Jesus...2009? A year of expectations, possibilites just waiting to happen. Well, we will see.

Don't tell me it's over now.

Sometimes...possibilities becoming probabilities can really make you appreciate something.
It seems so strange for everything to be over so fast. Yeah, now we finally have time to relax, but somehow, I just don't want to. I feel like getting back on my feet and going full steam ahead all over again.
Because these have been the best "holidays" of my life and it just can't be over. No way. Not now.
But everything has its time and place, and sometimes we just have to move on.
I'm really starting to miss the hype. This past year has been the most amazing year ever, thanks to everyone in SIC's JYM. Words cannot describe, so I won't even bother trying. But it's just been awesome to be a part of something so life-changing and to be used as a plattform for Jesus to take off on. And it always will be.
No matter what happens next year and whatever changes, we'll still remain together in the Spirit, peoples.

Awesome. Now I feel like crying with you guys too. All I need is our theme song recording (Justin...=.=") and the Family Nite video.

So anyways...no, I'm not jealous la. I never will be. I have better things to think about.
So..how on earth did Sue Ann and Seng Fatt become black belts and Bryan rise up to the same level as me?! Un.Be.Lievable.
Can anybody enlighten me on what time school starts next year? Lol.
PMR results are out!!! Omigosh...I think even more freaked than some people who are getting their results. =P Good luck to all post-PMR takers, esp. Vanessa, Darren, Valerie, Angeline and Sheldon. This time next year, I'll be in that position. >.<

Happy New Year, everyone. :)

Birthday tag.

Rules:
- Pick your birth month .
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people

JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Band conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense.Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. (Did I ever.) Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat.Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often.Treats friends importantly.Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

I tag...10 people who want to do this tag.