Tuesday, March 30, 2010

from the balcony to the LDP.

Back. And ready to roll; drama practice, CF Easter sketch, whole CF Easter event, debate auditions, public speaking preperations, JYM Easter Party mime, worship songlist, worship practice, class photoshoot.
I'm pumped, are you pumped?!

Okay, fine. I'm not. I haven't recovered. Yet.
I can walk without limping now, and I'm not coughing as much as I did on Saturday evening. The fever's gone down quite a lot and I've reduced my Pandol intake to four a day. The nauseousness is wearing off as well.
And I've been stretching my vocal range to sing as many songs as I can on two octaves. :)
But I still have this strange feeling of hallucination, like I'm walking on a floor of fluffy clouds, or like my head is being supported by a cotton-candy-filled head rest, or like my fingers are pressing into jelly instead of alphabetical keys. It's just weird.

But I suppose it's understandable judging from the amount of medicine I'm consuming. I mean, seven Panadols a day isn't very little. Don't worry, the doctor put a stop to that. But then he also gave me three other types of medication, including the much-dreaded huge-giant-obese-mutated-X-men-version-of-a-cockroach-sized antibiotic pills. *shudders.*

When I was a little girl, I still remember getting bottles full of funny-tasting pink "Aunty Biotic" medicine. Then, as I grew older, the doctors started giving me bottles of white instead of pink, even though they still refered to it as "Aunty Biotic". When I turned eight, I was presented with a number of enormous pills they still called "Aunty Biotic". But by then I'd figured that "Aunty Biotic" was really just a funky name that my parents had created to make my medication seem more interesting.
Either way, the pills don't get bigger than that.

Cockroaches. That's what they remind me of. Cockroach. We should so use that script again. X) Because a) I like it, b) I wrote it and c) oh, the memories it brings back! Hahahaha. Scripts. I feel like writing another five-minute, nonsensical one. :)

But no. Skipping two days of school = a lot of math homework. =.=" And missing the mock debate. And missing sketch practice.
Oh well. I have the rest of the week to get back on track.

Oh noes. Mass on Good Friday is at 4.30.
"Relax, I've got it all taken care of. :) The last thing you should do now is worry."
And then you come to me on Sunday morning running your fingers through your hair with that agitated look on your face saying "How now?!"
But I digress.

I want change. Obama? No. But change.
I've had it with all our depressing Friday nights where we stay on the phone until three in the morning even though we've seen each other hours earlier. I've had it with listening to an angonizing depressed nut complain about how useless he feels.
Was it any different, last Sunday? I'll be calling as soon as I can get through a sentence without coughing. ;)

My dad is spamming my inbox with hospitality ministry (a.k.a. church warden) emails. Cekap, weih. We should take a leaf out of his book. XD Just like he did with us when he set up a blog specially dedicated to the wardens of SIC.

Run baby, run.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

short, like me. sweet?

This week was just so...dramatic.
Yeah. Well. Sammie Hammie shall not dwell on it because there are more important things to do, like writing the conclusion of my testimony or trying to understand my devotion material or packing for camp or drowning Chrishen's chicken scratch handwriting in my planner with a blob of Liquid Paper or catching up on sleep after staying up until 3a.m. on the phone this morning and then waking up at seven or revising Chemistry or finding my voice, which I've lost right before the most intense choir practice we'll be having so far.
No holdiays. Like they were ever around anyway.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

the floodgates of heaven burst open and Your Love poured right through my soul.

AHAHAHAHA.
The results of my first Add. Math test were just ... .
AHAHAHAHA.
I don't care what you have to say. It just seemed incredible to me considering my Mod. Math score.
AHAHAHAHA.

I feel like such a bad girl.
Even though this is nothing.
I mean, skipping classes all the time. Sleeping in class. Finishing homework in class.
At least I'm not doing anything illegal, right?
Tsk tsk, Sam.
Today, I was writing a script during Mod. Math (because my Pn. Azmah has a very lullaby-like quality to her voice and I didn't want to be under her influence). Just as I was getting absorbed into it...
Pn. Azmah: Samantha? Is Samantha here?
And obviously I freaked out and thought she'd realized I was totally not into the lesson.
Thank you, Seng Yew. This is the second time this week you've saved me from an utterly sleep-inducing lesson. (And you actually thought of getting permission this time around. XD)
Hint: I have Physics on Friday. ;)

The woes of owning a handphone.
You see, the problem with my poor phone is that it is OLD.
OLD = LACKING UPDATED FUNCTIONS.
Like memory space for text messages.
Which is why after every three days I have to clean my inbox, seeing as how it only has a capabilty of 70 messages.
No, I'm not an SMS-aholic.
I just need to announce and follow-up to far too many people.
So if I don't reply your message, I'm either a) lacking the capacity to read it, or b) out of RM0.10 and free SMSes.

He was right.
OH, THANK YOU, DEAR GOD.
He was so right.
Nothing ever, ever goes down the drain when you decide to leave everything and follow God.
Worship does not guarantee happiness. It does not guarantee physical, mental or emotional energy. It does not guarantee a smooth, easy life.
Worship is what you give all of that up for because you know that it doesn't matter - nothing else matters - when it comes to God. It's just...just...INSANELY AWESOME, AWESOME, AWEOSME!!!
That's the only way I can describe it because it'd probably take up a 500-essay to describe how powerful and incredible worship is.
Especially when you make it a lifestyle. When you live and breathe it.
For the record, this does not count being a nutcase like me and going for two worship practices for two separate teams per day. Not including JYM.
Though I'm still singing with my throat. =.="

JESUS. I am so madly in love with You I don't have the time to be madly in love with anyone else. :)