Friday, July 24, 2009

Di-tag oleh Kar Mun

Yeah. The tag was like, cacat-ed, so Sammie's editting it.

1.) Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
My forehead. :) My nose? XD

2.) How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Not lazy enough to stay in bed.

3.) Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
My sister. I think.

4.) Would you consider yourself spoiled?
I know better than to let myself be.

5.) Will you ever donate blood?
Yes. When I’m old enough.

6.)Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Yeah, I have a team of them. :)

7.)Do you want some one to be dead?
No. Because not everyone I know has fully lived life.

8.) What does your last text message say?
"I'm not coming on the 8th." Okay, I'll skip too!

9.) What are you thinking right now?
Ishh...I'm actually redoing this tag.

10.) Do you want someone to be with you now?
I wouldn’t mind. :)

11.) What was the time you went to bed last night?
Like...twelve-something-ish.

12.) Where did you buy the tee that you are wearing now?
Central Chidlom, Bangkok.

13.) Is some one on your mind right now?
Yes.

14.) Who was the last person who text you?
Yun Lynn.

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...those who did this before would not be tagged again (do it if you want to)
1. Jason Chen Kok Ho
2. Chong Phei Fern
3. Esther Tan
4. Hong Han Xiang
5. Rachel Law
6. Lim Hong Wei
7. Wan Yun Lynn
8. Gavin Ng Joon Wai
9. Danush Parameswaran
10. Roy Beh Huai Jun

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with? [Phei Fern]

No one...as far as I know.

16.Is no.3 a male or a female? [Esther]
Female. Definitely.

17.If no.7 and no.1 got together would it be good? [Jason and Yun Lynn]
OMIGOSH. OMIGOSH. OMIGOSH!

18.what is no.1 studing about? [Jason]
Everything I’m studying.

19.When was the last time you chatted with them?
All of them: within the week. Except for Beh.

20.Is no.4 single? [Han Xiang]
Yes. I would know. XP

21. Say something about no.2. [Phei Fern]
She likes pinching my cheeks? LOL.

22.What do you think of no.2 and no.6 together? [Phei Fern and Hong Wei]
Um...um...um...omigosh?

23.Describe no.9. [Danush Parameswaran]
Our gold medalist! \m/ >.< \m/ And critic of my brownie recipe. X)


24.What would you do if no.6 and no.7 fight? [Yun Lynn and Hong Wei]
Don’t you dare. Both of you.

25.Do you like 8? [Gavin]
Sorry, but he’s taken by a certain someone...XD We wonder who.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Canai-ed. (editted)

Before anything else, this comes on Hong Wei's request.

Sorry that the only thing I remember about my speech for the public speaking competition was the roti canai part. X)
"Bahasa Melayu can in fact be compared to, say, a roti canai. Now, if we added eggs to the roti canai, thus making it a roti telur, would it lose it's identity as a roti canai? No, the essence of the roti canai still remains within the roti telur. Such is the case of studying English while still up keeping the values of our national language, Bahasa Melayu."
That's what kind of on-the-spot nonsense I come up with for not preparing at all. But my spontaneous crap was so much better than my memorized script and notes. XD
(Which I am too lazy to type out. So just ask me personally for my chicken-scratch points. XP)

There was once a wise guy who shared this philosophy: Life is like a roti canai. :) You should hear it, it's awesome. I bet he would have been so proud to hear me earlier today. X) Right?

All the other contestants were so much more prepared. I loved the DJ participants, they were so awesomee. :) Monica and I were like, the last few. Thus giving us more time to freak out.
If either of us get picked for the finals, it'd be like...a miracle. We were so nervous we couldn't even eat. And during this short period of total hyperventilation (on my part), I think one of our biggest mistakes was to compare Praveen...to Danush. O.O What re-tard-ed-ness.
I think among the other participants, we were like, the youngest. All of them were so experienced. Compared to us. Utterly clueless. But, like Monica said, it was good exposure. (Therefor we are so going back next year, right?!)
I wanted to stay back. But Pn. Vee had to leave. So we went back to school to lepak. :)
Out of the number of Sam-where-were-you-why-didn't-you-come-to-receive-your-medal-???'s, Zoe's was still the best. :)
"Sam! Where were you today? How come I didn't know there was a public speaking competition?? Oh well. I still screamed for you the loudest during assembly!"
Lol. Thanks, dear.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Drama.

"I need to reload this!"
"Can we go now?"
"I like it hot."
"That's what my mom used to say!"
XD
Presenting: Adri and I. Plus Riyal, our Taliban commander. XD
Today, we decided to have a total syok-sendiri drama session. =) Unfortunately, "Jin Tan" and Danielle went to McD's for lunch, Neil was in Interact (probably cursing us XP) and I don't think the others were informed...but oh well. :) Lyn, Esther, Zoe, Riyal, Adri and I were good enough. :)
We were late! (Miss Ann would have made us "run rounds". XD) Thanks to lepak-ing at our "drama table" in the canteen. X) Ended up behind the hall. Where we started being the retards we were. Actually we were retards from lunch until three. :)
I've still got the Irish drinking song stuck in my head. XD We so have to continue next week. And the week after that. And the week after that. And I think the week after that we need to start studying for trials. Never mind. We'll have "study sessions". XD
I didn't know I could speak Mandarin and Cantonese until today! o.O But I can. :) I fascinate myself sometimes.
We'll have the time of our lives keeping this tradition next year. Half our team is leaving. But I can't imagine life without drama. Remember what Pn. Ernice said right before our competition? Even if we lose out, even if we disappoint ourselves, the thing about our team is that we'll never give up, we have to continue striving for this. (Well, somewhere along those lines.) Even if Pn. Ernice is leaving us.
I still don't believe Michael goes to our church. Omigosh. (He scares me. I can't imagine casually seeing him one day.) How come we never invited him to give us a drama workshop?! (Even though the exercises he did with us still scare me.) I mean, we have a dramatist right here under our nose and we had to ask Colin to come? (Katanya, "she wants high-profile". I can believe that.) I don't believe I've never like, noticed the guy. I thought he looked familiar. And he used spiritual foundation that seemed almost too familiar. Oh well. I don't believe this is new to me.
My days are numbered. Soon there won't be any more "Little Sam". Soon there'll be "Only Sam". *sighs.
I lost my precious singing voice. I think it went up like, half an octave. And the worst part about it is that I know exactly what caused it. Remember the time my voice used to be like, my greatest pride? I wish I had those sore-but-honeyed vocal chords back.

I don't need these issues in my life right now. If you do, I suppose I can't do anything about it.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

in the shadow of Your wings, Hide me. (editted)

I feel so suffocated.
Pressured. Trapped. Forced.
All I want is for everyone else to BACK OFF.

Everything seemed to be going so right.
It still is.
But I don't want this daydream. I don't want to go on living like this.
I want my focus-driven self back, even if no one cares. Even if they're the ones tying to pull me away from achieving it.
I've got a better measure of myself than anyone ever will. And that small part of my brain that hasn't been dented is screaming, "What on earth do you think you're doing?!?! Get back on track now, you out-of-control maniac!"

I don't want this smile to be the only thing in my life right now. I want and I need more substance than that. I'm not shallow. I'm not willing to sacrifice my time, my studies, my family relationships and my love for God on top of everything else just because the rest of my friends are so obsessed with it. I don't mind walking away. I don't mind losing the high I get from it. Because I know myself better than that, and all I want is good for me.
This is as far away from "good for me" as smoking is.

It's not that I don't want this. It's not that I don't want you. But why do things keep coming in package deals? Why are complications always the cons? All I asked for was the simplest of sparks. But when I got it, everything else exploded on me.
Be careful what you wish for. Because God loves pampering His children, especially the little ones. You're gonna get more than what you ask.
I don't have the choice to keep it simple anymore. Because simple this is not.
If the world was my stage, my life would be a drama series. And it's up to the audience to interpret it the way they want. I play the part the way I feel it should be played, that's my job done and I don't care what other people think. (Thick skin, that's what we got from that. XD) I'm in this role because He knew I could handle what it was going to bring on me.
But I just can't expect everyone else to be able to cope with me. I wish they knew that the only way out is to change their own attitudes.

"Life is not a problem until you make it one." -Marcia Yap
People choose to make things more complicated for themselves. Everything is so simple. They just don't want to see that.
I can work with anything. I'm not sensitive. I'm not picky. You choose to think that way; you make me what you think I am. People think I'm like a ticking bomb liable to explode at any moment. Ha. If they think this is explosive, they have not been shot off the face of the earth yet.
Some people are soo touchy. I suppose they just have nothing better to do.




Thanks to my darling, ballet-pro, way-too-skinny, cheerleading-obsessed flyer of a sister who was happily using the computer yesterday afternoon, I just got 10 bucks of credit for free.
No, it is not a good thing. I am going to feel so guilty if I don't use it back on him.
I already feel guilty for the fact that it was snuck into school illegally and Li Hui was freaking out about the fact that there was going to be a spot check and it was in the hands of a student sitting next to a prefect.
No more free credit. Understand? No more.
I am never going to let a guy buy me credit ever again.
Unless I deserved it. ;)

Every one of my friends is so hurt. It hurts me just to see them hurt like that. It hurts to know the reason why and not be able to do anything about it. It hurts to not be able to give advice they could use. It hurts not knowing what to say.
But I can't solve their problems for them. Those are not mine. I'm the one making my life the problem-free fairytale that it is right now. And just because they're problem-fied, that doesn't mean I have to be problem-fied too. I'm perfectly content being problem-free.
You guys will live through it. People always do. X)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

second time.

Settled. (:
Thanks, Jason. For starting it. XD
Even though I still don't approve of the streetfighting. =.="
But whatever.

Here we go again. If I read your mind, I would. But I can't.
Hey, if I could get involved in politics, I would too. But I can't.
Unless I want to end up in juvenile ISA.
If I could blog every time I felt inspired, I'd have a lot to say.

Like how A(H1N1) could be the subject of biological warfare.
And that racial bias is one of the biggest possible factors contributing towards it.
Bet you never thought of it that way, huh?

But right now, I'm more concerned about the fact that I have to attend to JYM, Taekwondo, CF and the drama team next year. And figure out how I'm supposed to handle posts and carry responsibilities that require at least 99% commitment in everything. At the same time. And on top of all that, I have to get used to the Form 4 syllabus. And deal with the fact that Lyn won't be there to "chill" me anymore.

Did all the training in the world prepare me for this?
Puh-lease, I can handle this.
I hope.

Omigosh, I need Leong Li Hui and Vanessa Chew NOW. I can't deal with this alone. Not my emotional balance on top of everything else.
If I sleep now, will it all be over by tomorrow morning?

Friday, June 12, 2009

sharing and caring.

Eelaaaaine!
She's in Penang at the moment. And unfortunately, so is her camera.
Aan-knee-weiz...

Yesterday. I couldn't wake up. After reading Aunty Bernadette's book until two in the morning. But I managed to get to Eelaine's on time. Carmen was already there. Li Hui was going to be late.
We didn't start without her. As if we even wanted to start. So what did we do?
Held StoryTime! I love our StoryTimes. :) Carmen had a shocking one to share. X) And Eelaine's was so cutee! (It's his birthday today! Must give those Kisses.) Then Li Hui called. She couldn't find her way to Eelaine's house, so we had to go pick her up at the taman.

Me, Eelaine, Carmen, Li Hui
Eh, do you guys know where 81 is?
No...didn't she say which taman?
Huh? How many tamans are there?
Maybe it's this one...this is 80...
Wait...what car does she have?
Some big black car, I think.
I don't see a big black car anywhere.
Are you sure it's this taman?
Maybe we should call her and ask her to come out of her car.
*Sammie calls Li Hui.
Hello? Li Hui? Are you at the taman?
Yes, I'm here.
Huh? Really? We're here, too.
Really? I can't see you all.
Err...can you come out of your car?
Oh okay. *Ends call.
She said she's coming out of the car.
I don't see her...
Oh no. I think we got the wrong taman.
Wait, she said she's near Yew Ee, right? Is the other taman there?
Oh yeah...it is...
We better hurry, her dad sounded mad...
Oh no, what if we got her in trouble?
We finally found her. (Li Hui, your dad is scary.)
Went back to Eelaine's house. Then Li Hui told her camp stories! Okay, then we finally started on our project.
Started cutting up whacking the gula melaka on the cutting board while it was stuck on the knife. Carmen managed to cut her finger as well. Took turns to fry the peanuts. Eelaine's mom came in while it was Li Hui's turn and turned up the fire. Which burned the peanuts. (No offence, but your mom really doesn't know how to make fah sang paeng, Eelaine.) Carmen and I at least had some cooking experience.
Then we made the onde-onde dough and started putting in the gula melaka pieces. Well, more pieces went into our mouths than the dough. X) Yum. Then we started shelling the peanuts before deciding to go for lunch.
Eelaine's mom: So, do you girls want to go for lunch already?
Yes, I'm starving!
No, I ate too much gula melaka.
Eelaine and Carmen had to drag Li Hui and I away from the peanuts to get us to go for lunch. XP While we waited for Eelaine's mom, Carmen, Li Hui and I got a good look at his house. :) We couldn't make enough noise for him to come out though.
Then we went to McD's for lunch. McValue Meals are so over-priced. Oi, the cashier was not flirting with me, okay. =.=" And we saw Pn. Ting, Kerwin, one of Li Hui's tuiton friends (who thought we were sisters? :P), Sheng Yong and Cherissa! :) We had lunch upstairs. Then we started camwhoring in the playground. XP And all the little kids started laughing and talking about us. XD
After that we walked to SaveMart. Imagine yourself as one of the SaveMart workers. What would you think if you saw four crazy girls posing with packs of peanuts, flour and milk? ROFL. XD Then we walked back to Eelaine's house. How we managed to get back when none of us had any sense of direction is up to you to figure out. We started shelling peanuts as we watched TV. :) We were so behind schedule.
After that, we actually made the onde-onde, peanut cookies and started on the apam balik flour. The onde-onde and peanut cookies were okay. Then Li Hui had to go. (See you tomorrow!), and we started on the apam balik.
That was a complete disaster. I'm never using the recipe again. Ever. We had to add so much more water and milk than stated and it was still so rubbery. But at least Eelaine made it look okay, and the excessive sugar, peanuts and corn made it taste better. X)
Then I had to go homee. With all my baking stuff, saving Eelaine the hassle of bringing it on Monday. :) Have fun in Penang, dear. We'll demand to know all about it when school reopens. =P
Omigosh, school's reopening.
I think we wasted most of our time talking about PeaNuts and Gene and Watermelons and Gene and Basketball and everything else. X) But, at least we know each other better.
Carmen. I checked. He posted. After your post. Now you can go omigosh.
I feel like baking a cheeezecake! You guys were right. Whoever marries me is going to be so lucky. XD
What's wrong with me?
Wish I was so over it.
Well, now she's hooked on you too. See the kind of things you do.
See the kind of hurt you're going to cause for us.
And you don't even know, do you?

Thursday, June 4, 2009

rawr. (editted)

This feels so weird. Can you believe I've actually been spending the past four days completely at home?! I haven't pulled something like this off since...since...I don't know when. Definitely not since a year ago. This is so surreal.
I can't wait for school to re-open.
I can't even wait for Saturday.
Well, maybe I can. I just definitely can't wait to get out. This is so not me.
They're leaving for Penang tomorrow. And they're leaving for Selayang on Monday.
If my mom hadn't grounded me, I'd be on two back-to-back camps.
*sighs. One week off JYM is already mind-numbing. One week off everyone else is suicide.
At least...Sammie's got her call-answerable phone back! Well, it isn't exactly mine, which is still in the hand phone repairs shop. But at least I even have a call-answerable phone.
Not like any one's calling me. With the exception of an additional stalker, a.k.a. customer no. 3.
I feel so jobless. The past few days have been full of cleaning, cooking, drying laundry, folding laundry, ironing laundry and doing whatever else it is I'm slaving away at for my mom. And trying unsuccessfully to compose a song that's worth my time playing. And questioning the Education Ministry.
Like Aaron LXT says, it's like I'm living life during the emergency coup after May 13.
That's how sad it is.
Oh wells, tomorrow will be here soon enough.

The move by the Education Ministry to limit the number of As attainable to 10As for an average SPM-student is definitely not big enough a stride to raise the standards of academic acheivement in today's secondary schools. And will it be a step in the right direction to raise the quality of our As, as opposed to quantity (which they have, yays for them, come to realize will get us nowhere)? It disappoints me to read that Marina Mahatir, after consulting top foreign universities, finds that, with what appears to be academic excellence in our country, students must still take remedial classes overseas to catch up with their peers.
If you didn't understand that, never mind. Here's something else:
Raja Petra Kamaruddin's Most Sincere Apology to the Nation *click*
My flicker of faith stands nowhere compared to this man's firm stand in his belief and everything he speaks for. But maybe someday it will be.